Helloooooo everyone, long time no see! I haven't been as active as I'd like to be on my blog but hopefully that will change from today on out. So much has changed since July. I don't even know where to begin. Buckle up. I'll start off by saying that 2018 has been a year of harvest. I think back to locking myself in the bathroom and praying as soon as the clock struck 12 on New Years' Day, asking Jesus for prosperity, and prophesying over the year that it would be a year of breakthrough and harvest, which it has been. God is faithful. I'm using skills that I acquired during the seasons of hardship, and isolation. I have deeper understanding of why God allowed me to go through certain trials. Anyway, in March, I got scouted for LA fashion week. Crazy, right? Thousands of models attend open calls for LAFW, and God positioned someone to set me apart and choose me. It most definitely restored my interest in pursuing modeling (as God has instructed me to do last year.) It all happened so fast. I felt the Holy Spirit pushing me to go to take that Saturday off, and go to the Riverside Plaza. SO without hesitation, I did. I kind of walked around aimlessly, unsure of what I was supposed to find there, but the Holy spirit lead me the entire time. After buying a pack of salmon jerky from Trader Joe's, I began walking in the opposite direction, where a woman stopped me and asked me about LAFW. I was suspicious at first (bc I let those stories about sex trafficking plant a seed of fear in my heart ahhhh) but I met with her and her son (who was the manager of the brand I walked for) and it all played out perfectly. It was no coincidence that she was also on fire for Jesus. :-) At the fashion show, I met tons of models, photographers, and... "influencers." It was cool, but many of the people I met were kinda into themselves which was expected, yet disappointing after it became reality. I did meet a few kind human beings though. I went to an after party to people watch with a few makeup artists I had befriended, and oh my gosh the demonic activity in the atmosphere was off the scale. Honestly, the Holy Spirit told me to leave as soon as I walked in and I was being stupid and i stayed. I just stood there awkwardly in the corner and tried to figure out how people enjoy situations like that. I repent Jesus :-( I know have a much better understanding of the importance of obedience, even in seemingly harmless situations. We never know what God is protecting us from. Not only did walking in the fashion show lead me to later signing my first modeling contract with Willow Model Management (thx Jesus! u da best ily) but the Lord also used it to lead me to what I now consider to be my home church. One of the models in the show posted something on Instagram about a worship band which I ended up following, and going to a worship night they had in late September. Honestly, it changed my life. The Holy Spirit lead me to speak out about my struggle with anxiety, which has now been defeated. I met a bunch of cool, Jesus loving human beings who invited Sadie and I to their church. The church holds a young adult service every Thursday, and to see so many people who are my age worshiping Jesus and holding Him as the #1 priority in their hearts is so inspiring. It has totally made my relationship with Jesus even more personal than it was before. Actually, as I type this, I am sitting down in the coffee shop that is built into the church. Go figure. Like I said, I've met a lot of really cool people here who have accepted me with open arms in such a short amount of time. I really feel the presence of the Holy Spirit at this church, and worship always has me absolutely wreckedt. SO anointed. So pure.
I forgot to mention that I stopped working at a certain some lady threatened to kill me in March (I ended up quitting like two weeks before the fashion show so that worked out too) which was P interesting. I titled this post as "A Shift" because surely there has been a large shift in my life, even since September. I was being attacked by the enemy on almost every side around that time, and that worship night birthed an entire new season of my life. Everything is so different. I am more in tune with the Holy Spirit. I am learning the importance and pleasure of community and fellowship. I find that the lessons I learned during hardship through 2012-2017 are being put to use. I have been put in situations that Jesus trained me for during the seasons of isolation and pruning, and come out of them with peace because I used what He taught me. I've been equipped with a new set of spiritual weapons. I am armored in Christ. I'm not sure what else God has in store for me for the rest of this year, but I am looking forward to blessing His name for whatever it may be. Thankz for reading this I appreciate u may you have a blessed day and may the Lord keep you in all that you do, and may you be equpped with everything you need to quench every fiery dart of gthe enemy. In Jesus name amen. Love, Deja |
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