Unprecedented times we are living through, my friends. It's about 5:00 PM, and it's raining. I decided to remain on campus during the pandemic, and the residence department decided to relocate us all to my school's main campus, which is tucked away up on a mountain in Brentwood. I am on the fifth floor of my building, and the birds who live in the tree adjacent to my window are basically my roommates. I don't mind that though; it kind of makes me feel like Snow White. Everyone is separated for safety reasons, and I don't remember the last time I held a conversation with a human being in person (aside from the staff who work in the dining hall.) With that being said, though everything and everyone feels distant physically at the moment, I don't feel lonely, thankfully. I feel comforted. I like to imagine that this is a retreat that I payed for. Kinda how Bon Iver broke up with his girlfriend, locked himself in a cabin in the woods, and then released one of the greatest indie folk albums of all time?? (ok honestly I think that's an urban legend but we're gonna roll with it)
Aside from this strange blob of uncertainty everyone is dealing with right now, my faith is definitely being strengthened. This all feels like a nice spiritual work out. (I guess this lil retreat I'm on comes with a free gym membership hehe) Aside from the obvious, there are a few other things going on in my life that are requiring me to be actively faithful, and I am doing my best to push through. Jesus is faithful, and promises are promises. Fear is a distraction. As we are praying for those who are being affected by this, don't allow your prayers to be prayers of panic, but pray with the understanding that God hears your prayers loudly and clearly. I beagn attending a new church back in December. I am ever so thankful for what God has been teaching me there, and the wonderful people I have met. Everyone has given me a very warm welcome, and I feel accepted and loved. I could go on for hourzzz. I am also super stoked that everything that is preached is biblically sound. 10/10. As we are temporarily unable to see each other irl, we've been meeting with each other electronically, having Sunday service, weekday devotionals, and other things. Regardless of our circumstances, it's been nice to see everyone's dedication and love for one another. I have been thinking a lot about the first post-quarantine church service, and how I am probably going to cry tears of joy the entire time. Pretty excited. Anyway, I have been contemplating ordering a Nintendo Switch Lite due to my strong desire to play Animal Crossing. I literally spent two hours looking at Animal Crossing memes last night and I am beginning to feel very very strong FOMO. Aside from spending time with Jesus, church, and homework, I have more than enough free time. (Most of which I have dedicated to watching Youtube videos of Animal Crossing play-throughs or Daria.) I have also strongly felt the desire to go back to black hair, which probably will happen. I literally get irritated every time I see these blonde highlights in the mirror. Ok I am rambling now. TTYL. Everything is going to be fine. *virtual hugs* xoxo, Deja |
AuthorMy name is Deja Spears, I am 23, and I am thankful that you are here. Archives
May 2020
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